A corner of MY oWn

i think i deserted this place for a long long time…..

it needs caring…it needs to be feed…it needs to be nourished….just like humans…it needs to be filled up …

It all boils down to laziness

I admit. im lazy.

When there’s time, i will always think: …leave it tomorrow

When there’s special happenings, it says: its ok…you have plenty of time to do it…so not today

When there’s a whole jungle of story to be told, it says: HUH…not in the mood yet

when i wanted to yell out, i would think: why bother typing…YELLIng out would be faster and effective

so that’s how…i left this place all by itself…unkept…

Its like putting off a person behind your mind…then suddenly……look for it just bcoz no one is there…

Take- for- granted attitude we call it

*sob sob* sob*…sob*…..@_@

Haiz…the worst thing that happened here through out this sem…

Damn it…what on earth are these people trying to do…creating harmful spyware and viruses…causing pain in the asses….curse you!!!!

Well, yes…my dear laptop crahsed…and thanks to those idiots…i have no laptop to use these few days. How can this happen?… The story goes again: i was searching some tour and holiday information about Hungary and Romania…just when i clicked to this particular website, my antivirus system alarm went off…a loud one…red dialog box popped out warning me that there’s virus…i quickly withdraw from the website….and started to get panic…bcoz the computer seem to go hanging….

i didnt know what to do,…..so i let the antivirus scan run….hopefully they will kill those germs, virus and bacteria….but it didnt seem to work…other spyware came popping out ….warning signs appeared again and again…demanding me to download to anti spyware systems…Antivirus 2009….worst of all..those porn websites automatically appeared in the window and the icons automatically appeared on my desktop…..no matter how many times i deleted the icons they came out immediately after that. so the panicky hui ann didnt know what to do but called around to ask for help…

We struggled…installed various antivirus system to help my dear Dell survive…i even called back to ask for help….LAstly, the final resort…a Powerful but deadly boost —SPYBOT was my only hope. I ran the system to fight with the spyware. There was 39 infections scanned and i thought YES!!!! its time to send you guys off…so i happily clicked to destroy them …hoping to set my dell free from spyware and viruses ……it was like going through a surgery…risk and hope…

a few questions popped out after they were being destroyed and i was foolish enought to click ‘allow change’…’allow change’..many many times..so after everything..i had to restart the laptop…dear Dell needs to recuperate…

However….when i restarted the laptop…i could no longer get into Windows’….i could only get the sound and the blue screen with the ‘Welcome’ word…and at that moment…i knew i lost in the battle and my dear Dell sacrificed…*sob sob*…i called home to report to mom and dad about the unfortunate event…

I had been surviving in my room for 2 days without the presence of my laptop…wonder how i did it?…haha…believe me…it does not feel good at all…..and lastly…just to say a big thank you to all of you who fought this battle together…your concerns…phone calls…heartfelt….thank you and thank you..thank you to all for being there….

iaya…so long didnt update my blog…all "fat moh" d…

since today got mood a bit…let me do some updates

Had been in Sheffield for more than a month d…Life became hectic for the past 2 weeks…Almost "die" of assignments and presentations…was trying very hard to make myself focus..everything i did was half way…the most challenging thing was we were swaping groups every 2 weeks and so …we meet and work together with different partners…some very "geng"…a little LCLY but can work…some blur blur…some cool, but can give points ( really made my eyes wide open)…and there is one type that makes me go crazy …irritating …really cannot tahan…no contribution nvm…cakap sikit pun tadak…each time discussion, only know how to ask irrelevant questions…haiz…we meet all sorts of people…solve different case studies….but of course….also learn how to handle those type of "special" people with care ….thus, its quite interesting everytime when i think of it….hehehe

That’s not the sad part of the whole story….sigh…me and dear housemates were so used to our little unit 36…its my "home"…i always look forward to go home after a long long day in Uni…..Its the time we use to gather at the kitchen…we talk, gossip and laugh while preparing for our dinner…Hehe, time is never enough for us….But…happy moments like that can only be in our memory d…Yesterday, the thing that i was worrying about, finally happened…We were FORCED to shift from unit 36…The building needs to be refurbished before their semester starts….the most UNBEARABLE part was when i was told, "You have to stay seperately"…."sorry, there’s no units left for 5 person"….i went blank that very moment… i didnt know what to do…i felt lost…they were also lost…we have to shift that very night and return the keys next morning…

I went back….blindly packed everything into my luggage…there werent a sound from any of us….as time ticks away, the more i thought about it, i felt worse….the message alerts went ringing…friends kept asking is there anything they could help…i felt so touch….and i really felt like crying…(i know i know…i very "ham pao")but its not the hassle of shifting…its the moment we had at home…its the joy we shared together…its just..gone

I shifted to my new shelter…unpacked everything…cleaned the table and chairs…and i thought for a while…im going to miss them…i wont be shouting : IM HOME!!!…i wont be calling out names… i wont be cursing and laughing at people loudly in the kitchen….i wont be singing Karaoke in the kitchen…i no longer can knock at my housemates’ door just opposite mine…aiy…

Well, we had our last dinner in the kitchen at Unit 36…then quickly, we cleared our stuff and then another problem came by: how are we suppose to split our groceries…we were sharing all these while…and we’ve been contributing to the housefund all along…sad isnt it…no kitchen for us to cook by ourselves….we had to share with our new housemates and we were like "second class" tenants bcoz we shifted in late…Had to cook after them…im not saying that we are being bullied….they were the original students staying there wor…and we just shifted in…so its manners and courteous to follow their rules lor….

I tried to look at things better…but im still disturbed by this…well…allow me to "mourn" one more day..and i make sure i’ll not complain further after that….Bless me with my new housemates ya!

hey…its already been a week since i left home…ahhh…as i always say: time flies…

erm…honestly, haven’t really miss home yet…..(nah, dun’t get me wrong…its bcoz i get to talk to them through video call everyday) stilll can tahan lar! But i do miss my car in a certain extent…why?…..aiy..its bcoz i got to WALK whenever i want to go out….Walk to Uni..walk to market…walk to hypermarkets…i paling takut when i have to walk up the slope in front of the Uni…its TirinG!!!!*sob sob…but in another way, i get to exercise lor…although not those sweating type…but at least im MOVING right…

Quite settled down here now….erm, classes havent started fully yet…Just had lectures since its the first week we were here mah…

The only thing we use to do almost everyday: is to rayau-rayau inside the One POund shop or go to a hypermarket to look for food…i dunno why…forever so many things to see…kkekekeke…although its the same…but there’s ONE section i always go to…its the Biscuits and snacks section!!!!OMG….their varieties of biscuits/cookies/savouries….none of Malaysia’s supermarket can beat them lor…I didnt know cadbury has this much of products…i swear i didnt see them in KL before…wah…you know..each time when i seethem…I’ll be like a small girl…standing at each display bars …looking at the biscuits/cookies or chocolates with diamond sparkle eyes….going through them in detail…making sure that i wont miss a single product….whua…i just enjoy looking at them……although in the end i wont be buying them…= =" the colourful packaging…its just seducing i tell you…

But since i have to control myself, i’ll just allow myself to buy when i’ve finish eating or when im really hungry…hehehehe…lets see how well it works….

Weather has been quite inconsistent everyday since i was here a week ago…i’ve experienced all sorts of combination of weather in a day…rainy and cold…sunny and windy…sunny and rainy…cold but sunny…its like four season in a day…its just madness….just when i thought the weather will be fine for the day and challenged myself to wear my 3-qtr pants….it turn out to be raining…and poor me…i had to bear the cold for the day * sob-sob….but i also learn something from this lar…….is to read the weather forecast before going out…hahahahahaha……

During my first weekend here, I’ve visited Manchester….oh yes…i went to Old Trafford Stadium..ahhh…The Theatre of Dreams they call it…its beautiful…its beyond what i can express when i first step into the football stadium…can imagine those roaring and cheering of the fans while a football match is on…although im not a hard fan of the red devils….however, i believe, to be able to shout and cheer together with the whole stadium will be quite an experience…dont you think so?…

To me, the weather here is still cold…..still need some time to suit myself maybe….

Classes will start officialy next week, which is tmr… aiya…back to the time where i have to rush for assignments and coursework..and to prepare tutorials…..

well its back to school !

I feel very small myself….Do you?

after listening to stories, meeting up with people…i feel that there’s so much going on around me. Yet, i have no idea where am i suppose to start. how should i get myself involved. How to be part of the moving world.

There’s so much i want to do. yet. a person’s strengh has got its limitation.

I started working one and a half month ago. honestly, I consider myself quite lucky compared to other colleagues who entered the same time as me. Speaking of workload, superior n seniors, clients lar…..I shouldnt be complaining…i shouldnt be yelling that im tired…i shouldnt be stressed out…. There is much to learn..Yet, i started to freaked out. I cannot even handle the slightest pressure… kekekeke…i wonder, how will i survive for the next few years….

Everybody is working very hard to survive…and when i thought i was the one very "cham"…i thought of those who worked equally hard or even double harder.They are the ones who should be yelling and screaming. I asked myself : Who am i to do that?….

I began to feel ashame of myself. that’s not what a young chap should be, right?

The feeling just became very complicated. I felt very bad. I realised that i was dragging myself to work. No matter how hard i persuade myself to stay focus, it wasnt working. Its not a good sign isnt it…..

I must learn to let go. To learn from the very begining. To learn to be humble. To learn to be calm instead of being "tan kai" (nervous and tense up easily). To learn to think. To think before asking. Its important not to ask stupid questions.(but, Utilising my brain more is a very challenging task. Give some time to achieve it)….To learn to plan and be sytematic…….ARGHHH,…..So many things!!!!

I thought i was free from school and college. But come to think of it, its another classroom im in this time. Its the "Working society" class im enrolling in now….So everyone, wish me best of luck….. cross your fingers and hope that i’ll stay in this for quite some time k. Wishing you guys all the best in your studies or working or whatever lar…

How unusual?…well..

1. We traveled back home earlier this year. For the past few years, my family and i had been late for CNY’s eve reunion dinner. We always couldnt make it in time for the dinner. ( For 3-4 yrs i think) We end up having reunion "supper"…kekekeke….. BUT this year, we went home on eve’s morning..Started the journey around 330 am. Crazy….Well, just to avoid the terrible jam lar…. However, it turn out to be a smooth drive. Oh..i drove half way back too k….( proud of myself)…. …yes yes,while we were travelling towards north, we passed by padi fields. It was almost 715 am i think. The sky turned slowly frm pink blue to yellow grey and later orange. Sun ray spread through the wide padi fields. It was like a beautiful picture in front of me.I couldnt express myself. I was speechless for a while.

2. We went for movies on eve’s night rather than having our usual routine on CNY 1st day. KEkeke…Normally, (all the grandchildren) we will go for a movie on the 1st day just for a past time. But we had it earlier this year. They couldnt wait to get out of the house. …..sigh…how sad… And as for the movie we watched….KUNG FU DUNK!!!! It was funny..But kind of a hopeless movie though. Honestly, If given a chance, I would rather buy the DVD to watch at home than spend money to watch it in the cinema …..

3. Spent more time sleeping… Kekeke…normally i wouldnt sleep till late morning. It will cause me headache and a whole day of discomfort. However, i got sleepy easily this yr round. I will sleep after breakfast, after lunch and go to bed early at night. How strange!!! Well, go on……, say it….., its like a pig’s life right!

4. My dad will always make it a point to visit his kampung, Baling. As usual, we will go to this temple situated inside a mountain hole to pray. After that, my dad will go round to his kampung to see how its being developed and he will start to tell his childhood stories……THis year, he decided to take a stroll down the river side, where their old house was situated, with my aunties…. hahaha…guess what? they met their malay childhood friend cum neighbour. What a coincidence! We were then invite to their house for a chat. How nice…(I mean, you wouldnt meet these kind of people in KL town. They are far meaner.) Grandma met up with the neighbours whom she have not seen them for decades…They hug each other and called each other "nyonya"…(that’s how they address each other) and even spoke in malay slang which is only understandable among them….Not even my dad understands….hhehehehehe….Some of the nenek is ald reaching 90+ of age… Yet they look better than those who are 70s living around KL…They say living in kampung prolongs your life…But i put it this way: Staying in KL shortened out lives actually

5. Less group photo taken…

6. Having KFC twice in 2 days…crazzy…

7. Had 3 days of longan with ice-cream soda drink. I tell you, it was so hot tht we made the drink each day to cool ourselves down. Sigh..hopefully it doesnt increase my chance of getting diabetis…

8. LOst a lot while gambling…to who?…my mom! She wore a very very "ang ang" shirt that day..and maybe bcoz of that, she manage to sapu all my cousins’ "bullet" (money) and mine too!!!! It was reallly her day! unbelievable…

9.. Oooh…i went for morning walk and visited their market…

emm…tht’s pretty unusual to me…i know it may be not for some of you…However there’s a few things tht are common every new year…kekeke…the consumption of new year cookies…it never go less…the angpows… the boring tv programmes (but we still watched)…kakakaka…..

What about you? Had an unusual CNY like me too?

Just days after coming back from Penang, I made another trip to Melaka with a few friends.

This time, since mom n dad are not with me, no cars to zoom me here and there, no unlimited money that i can spend, no luxury hotel rooms to stay in…

We travellled round town by walking mostly. GOsh! and those 2 days were hot & sunny till I had t-shirt marks on my back = =" *Gals got to really take note of that k, you dont want this to happen on you…Oh besides walking, we even had the opportunity to ride on Melaka Town bus that cost us only 70 cents per person…and guess what, they had bus conductor on it. Well, its a rare scene in KL to catch a bus with a conductor selling a 70 cents ticket to you…. (mind you,dont compare it with Metrobus pls….CUrse you, Metrobuses!!!!!)

Well it took us a long way to look for the hotel. Its situated near Jonker street. We walked a "BIG ROUND" to get there. I swear, it was so HOT and sweaty….And by the time we reach, we couldnt check in the hotel when we’ve arrived because its too early(around 1100am).Rooms were not ready yet. Thus, we decided to explore the places around first. So, this is when Our "treasure hunt" thus started-

To rest our feet and feed our growling stomach,we had our first meal,Chicken Rice BAll with "white steamed chicked"…The chicken meat was lousy cause they served either a grandpapa or grandmama  chicken. You know…the meat where you can chew forever and ever but cannot swallow down still. a dissapointment.

After lunch, we went visiting around.. Well-known tourists spots like St Paul’s hill, A’famosa, The Big Ship, the stamp museum, the "art-of-beauty"musuem etc.

Weather was fine until late noon when rain showered for a while. We were exhausted by then. hot.sweaty.sticky. We then decided to walked to Jonker Street to look for smth.Smth most of us would like to have in such "oven-like" weather.icy.sweet………YES!! its Cendol! …i was practically dragging myself down the street to look for it..It was like walking in a desert and hoping to see an oasis appear immediately….We found one small shop that sells nyonya cendol (but it tastes the same as the usual one we have in KL…)Without further hesitation, we ordered 4 bowls of cendol. Before us was a chinese family with lots of lots of children.They ordered and ordered for food and the tauke-soh was the only person who is handling the ice shaver with her daughter and maid clearing the tables and plates…I tell you..i really felt like cursing them at tht moment. Our cendols were not ready yet after 15 min…arghhHHHHH….made me crazy…..But…but.. after an icy cold bowl of cendol, it rejuvenates a person i tell you…you really got to try this..can feel the cold liquid tickling my burning throat =) syiok…

DInner was quite special. Erm, i dunno whether do we have it in KL or not. But its quite a cute idea though. Its call the "satay celup"….the name  sounds  yummy isnt it?…They have a pot in the middle of the table. The pot is full of this reddish-oilly-hot looking kuah. Its the kuah kacang we serve with our satays but this is a little hotter having less kacang in it. Haha but the way they total the bill…its funny… They count the sticks you ate and multiply them by 50cents. We had 80 sticks…=) Do you know, this delicacy is VERY famous in Melaka where crazy diners form a long long long queue outside the shop starting frm 5 smth in the evening, just to have fishballs, crabsticks, vege deeped in kuah kacang for their dinner…WALAU….only one word to describe them..GReedy eaters! (wai-sek in cantonese)…kekekekeke

Oh during dinner,we purposely half-filled out stomach to save it for better food during the later part of the evening. Hehe, finally,we "lepaked" at Jonker Walk, a must-go visiting spot. We had yummy nyonya asam laksa and another serving of ice-kacang (better this time) for supper.

Jonker Walk- the pasar malam every fri,Sat and Sun night.WAsai…Packed with tourist, Full of Eatery and Souveneir stalls, Performers on stage,Karaoke Singing… a Happening place to be! But if you dont enjoy crowdy places, take my advice, once is enough.

I was in Melaka for 2 days…tiring… but its enjoyable though. I was bringing 2 full-load bags home when i left. YOU know lar, those hand-made noodles, coconut sweet(my favourite), Pineapple rolls etc. Too much hor, all food..gosh!

However,one factor that made this trip enjoyable—— is because of those who i went with. I longed to go out with them. Its quite an golden opportunity to get together. TIme is the limit. It will not be that flexible for everyone later when they start working or even gets busy with their assignments. I understand, everyone will be occupied by their chores in future. So,…."Cherrishing the moment we have" …..that’s what im doing…

Being thinking about these 2 weeks….hmm…would you bellieve it?..i’ve been traveling UP north and DOwN south of the peninsula and went straight Up the HILL wihtin the 2 weekends…wah…sounds so "HOliDayish and sYiok"….kkekeke..yup..its been quite tiring yet enjoyable.. =)

1st weekend-Spent a weekend in Penang with my family.A slow pace but tiring holiday.When you think of Penang, you relate it to island.beach.mouth-watering hawker stall food.hot weather.trishaws…

Yet, this time, i have quite a different view to it. I see tall condos every where, standing tall at the sides of the hill.CaRS.Traffic JAM.ShoppING MAlls.Rubbish.Dirty SeaWater and worst of all lousy food..sob sob….EMm,quite dissappointing actually. Maybe its due to the peak holiday season,everywhere was packed and congested.In short,people moutain people sea. Not to mention about the number of cars on the road, travelling around was quite time consuming and troublesome. You get stuck in the middle of no where for no reason (god knows why)

Yet,I spent quality time with my family this time. No packed visitings.No crazy shoppings (not in a mood)Not much searching and hunting to be done,even for food (somehow everyone turns out to be so cautious about their diet till they dont even enjoy their food.) …HOw sad ;(   But this never upsets me….i still ate as usual…kekekeke

Erm unfortunately, a small accident happened that cause the holiday ended "not-so-happiliy-after". A lesson to everyone. We got to really take precaution in everything we do because accidents can happen anytime.

But on the whole, i had fun. I even headed for something i really longed to do…KARAOKe!!!! hehehehehe… I admit.Im no singing queen. AHH but think of it… Who cares…. ^v^

Aiya…its been a very long time since i updated my blog…it looks like an "untaken cared" garden with weeds and grass everywhere and today, its gardening time….

Referring back to the title,….

I had a 1-in-a lifetime 2-3 seconds experience which i feel that most of us here would "die" rather than experience it…

It was almost dinner time…

While i was just about to start frying ham and sausages ….

Since we were away frm home a few days and the wok was just left outside on top of the stove, so i decided to give the wok a wash… (oh…my house’s wet kitchen is located outside my house.its outdoor)

So, as soon as i went out, i lift the wok and walked off…and as soon as i was about to turn my body away…

my eyes saw smth…smth brown..shiny…coiling…

The moment i saw tht…i tell you….i quickly threw the wok away…run to the door…slam the door…lock it…and ran upstairs for help!!!!! Shouting :SssssNAKE!!!!SNAKE!!!!SNAKEeeeeee!!!!

My body was shivering…can feel the chill thru my spine…disgusted….i was walking up and down …… This is CRAzy!!! AHHHHH!!!! how can this happen!!!!

dad.mom.bro.2nd aunt. They brought huge round big fat stick with them, sheltox and hammer in hand. Me? Hiding at home = ="…..

According to bro, mom sprayed and it slowly uncoiled itself. Can see it holding its head up slowly..very fierce…Dad just smashed and hit and hit and hit with all his might..mom sprayed and sprayed and sprayed…So the sound was "bung! bung! Bung! Spzz..Spzzz..Bung! Spzz..Bung!!! …

And At last….after all bunging and spraying…finally it was dead…

THey had a close look at it.THe snake was triangle in shape. It seem to had just fed itself.Full stomach. Nowonder it cant move fast. Well, i dont even feel sorry for it..i just told myself :Too bad..you were slow..we had to kill you..or we will be in trouble…

Should you be back..we ,Snakes Busterzz will be all ready.waiting to put you in hell..so just bring it on and you’re dead meat!!!!

Have to say this, having too good of a life isnt really as good as what you expected.

YOu tend to have no drive and rushing blood for doing things.Its just so slow moving everyday…no time limit… I admit, i am those type who needs kicking, pushing and yelling frm others to get me moving….

Setting time tables and job list are no longer effective as long as im concern. I can always tell myself : mmmm…its oklar…i’ve got tomorrow to do it…" TIME…tht’s what i got ..and you dont have…

Oh..one more thing…i notice…im always on the mood for FOOD….Forever hungry…nothing seems to fill my stomach…

These are sympthoms of : LAZINESS…arent they..kekekeke…

My friends said that i should be enjoying this part of my life…Catch up watever tv series or movies im lacking behind…Learn up whatever computer skills i wish to learn…Read books tht i’ve always wanted to read…Surf the net endless time….

But pal, tell you smth..when you’ve done all tht and compare what you did when your friends and familes are working night and day,"fighting" for survival out there..you’ll notice..how "useless" oneself is…

Ive got to Go after smth…Everyone needs to eye on a point and work towards the goal….yeah…i think tht’s what i need now…Eyeing on my bed…hehe